It's a NO or it's NOT?

I don't know how many times I've been asked with this question when I'm meeting a new friend. At first I was really mad bout it... but it has been a norm to me. And the answer is NO, but I'm not sure if I really mean NO as NO or as a MAYBE NO, but at the moment it's deffinately NO... Hmm.. You guys must be wondering what I'm talking about.. But just let me the only one who know... There's still one thing that bother me, if that person could ask other friend about it, why he or she doesn't has the gut to just ask me at the first place... Sometime people are more likely to believe on the assumption that they made by themselves instead finding the truth. I still living the horrid moments that I lived a year ago... I just can't forget about everything... I'm too tired about it, and too tired to keep it going..