I went to college today, to collect my caution fee. Well, I'm supposed to meet-up with Mr Eddie but he wasn't there. But I meet-up with Karen Lim. We had a met-up last Friday night. So it was just to say hi...
It seems that my blog is all about what I did during the whole day, other than that is nothing...
Hmm... I've been thinking about marriage. It's not like I want to get married or what... Few of my friends getting marry this weekend and a week afterthat. It just make me thinking about how am I doing in life... I don't mean your status of relationship is the measurement of success in your life fulfillment but its the status on the assurance in your life. Meaning that, the people who are married they must have the luxury in confident and certainty in terms of finance, social, commitment and self esteem. I think among all four, I only have one, the social part.
Socially I'm balanced. I think. I'm not over socialize with the people who I'm not supposed to socialize with ie I'm happy with my current friends. I think they are great! I always easy to know and meet a new people. I'm happy to hang-out with all my friends. But there still something missing, the right person who I supposed to love.
As for the other three, financially- well now I'm still struggling to earn money, well I'm jobless at the moment, looking forward to work in US. Commitment - well at this moment, I put all the commitment in my job, giving everything to fulfill my dream in my career, just not in relationship yet. Self esteem - It's kindda hard to explain what I think about my self esteem. It's pretty low right now. I'm 25 years old. Still struggling. I'm jealous with my ex-classmate who still young and have a lot of years to come for them to explore the culinary world. The only things that better between me and them is my maturity. That's all. That's why I fight with myself to get everything that I dream of, like going to US and being the top student. But after college I feel have to start all over again. Gaining back my self esteem. Going back Johor last month didn't help. Mixed around with my friends, just make me feel small... They are much successful than me. Getting paid at least RM2500+ a month is enough to show how good they are compare with me. I'm not saying that how much you get is the measurement, but it takes years to get that amount of money if you work in hotel industry in Malaysia. Hmm... Life.
As for now, I'm very comitted about my work.. I don't think I will get married soon. Untill I reach 30 years old or maybe forever. So if anyone asked me if will I ever get married, well it depends.
It seems that my blog is all about what I did during the whole day, other than that is nothing...
Hmm... I've been thinking about marriage. It's not like I want to get married or what... Few of my friends getting marry this weekend and a week afterthat. It just make me thinking about how am I doing in life... I don't mean your status of relationship is the measurement of success in your life fulfillment but its the status on the assurance in your life. Meaning that, the people who are married they must have the luxury in confident and certainty in terms of finance, social, commitment and self esteem. I think among all four, I only have one, the social part.
Socially I'm balanced. I think. I'm not over socialize with the people who I'm not supposed to socialize with ie I'm happy with my current friends. I think they are great! I always easy to know and meet a new people. I'm happy to hang-out with all my friends. But there still something missing, the right person who I supposed to love.
As for the other three, financially- well now I'm still struggling to earn money, well I'm jobless at the moment, looking forward to work in US. Commitment - well at this moment, I put all the commitment in my job, giving everything to fulfill my dream in my career, just not in relationship yet. Self esteem - It's kindda hard to explain what I think about my self esteem. It's pretty low right now. I'm 25 years old. Still struggling. I'm jealous with my ex-classmate who still young and have a lot of years to come for them to explore the culinary world. The only things that better between me and them is my maturity. That's all. That's why I fight with myself to get everything that I dream of, like going to US and being the top student. But after college I feel have to start all over again. Gaining back my self esteem. Going back Johor last month didn't help. Mixed around with my friends, just make me feel small... They are much successful than me. Getting paid at least RM2500+ a month is enough to show how good they are compare with me. I'm not saying that how much you get is the measurement, but it takes years to get that amount of money if you work in hotel industry in Malaysia. Hmm... Life.
As for now, I'm very comitted about my work.. I don't think I will get married soon. Untill I reach 30 years old or maybe forever. So if anyone asked me if will I ever get married, well it depends.
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