Is this my fault?

I'm sad at the moment. I'm not so sure now... after being delayed so many times... I know, right now all I have and can only do is wait for the visa. It's been almost 4 weeks now. Karen C, message me this morning asking me how am I doing... I told her that I'm good. But it's not entirely an honest answer. I'm worried. She asked me to get a part time job so that I can keep myself busy and not to think about this... But I know myself... how busy I am, there's a part of my mind will keep think about it... It's been proven a long time ago... I told myself after the Friday prayer that I will get a part time job this Monday and tomorrow I'm going to look for one... At least I'm doing something... I can't afford to waste any more time.

Life can turn to be unexpected sometimes... Even when you have all the reasons for you to believe on what you believe in... A month ago I believe everything will work out well.. I mean that I can leave on time but still no.

Hmm.. is this gonna be a good year? Perhaps.