Unapologetically myself

I'm taking part time as being advised by Karen Chan. Not less than a week after a new year, I'm screw up on things. My parents called me three times, but I didn't pick-up or return their call. Why? Because I know they going to ask me the same questions and I'm giving back the same answers. I don't want myself to get upset by it or making them upset with the words that I might uttered to them. I know me, when I facing with something that I have no power to avert it, I'll become upset, thus if someone keep bugging or asking for the things that I have no knowledge, I'll become someone who want to be stayed away from. Right now, the best thing is that stay away from trouble even with your parents. I see myself as a troubled son. At the moment that is. I think that I'm in depression over my situation here. I'm out of money. The only money that I have right now is USD 1000 worth of traveler's cheque for the US trip, and money for the tickets around RM3500. I'm reluctant to use or to cash in the cheque. I haven't been eaten for the whole day. Damn! Why the entire plans turn to be this way? Right now, I'm willing to do everything to get the visa and leave the country. I can't stand with my parents’ scrutiny over my situation right now.