Email from the past

Few years ago, my hotmail was deleted because i didn't check my mails for months, all my emails were gone and a month before i got in new orleans i moved all my mails to another email account. Last night, i did a clean-up, which i deleted few emails that not important. But strangely enough, i found an email dated back 7 years ago from a long lost friend that i known from internet chat room. I was stumped from what i found. I email her back to see if that email address still valid. It's still valid, i have not get a undelivered email yet. Hopefully, she gets it and reply to me soon. Is that weird or what!
A part from the email thing, i have found that sometimes i can be a push over guy. Which i'm not entirely happy about it. I always say yes, hard to say no. But i believe that if i did something to please someone or a good deed, at least it makes me feels good. And sometimes, it stress me up. Trying to please everyone, or to say being diplomatic with everyone. But what if, all the good deeds that i do are just a cover-up all the bad stuffs that i did before because we all at least being to bit judging over everyone. When we see small good deed, we not going to see the bad behaviour behind it, same goes another way around. I'm not saying that i'm a good or a bad person, but everytime when i feel myself being to nice to people, i couldn't simply said no. And sometimes, i regreted. There's a reason why i'm thinking like this, someone asked me if i were a gay, and i told them that will it makes any different if i were. Am i being nice to people because i'm were a gay. And guess what? They couldn't answer me that. But one of them is so cocky telling me what a waste if i were. Who the hell is he to judge me and telling me that i (or other gays) would be a waste. Fuck
Waiting for laundry can be sometimes really bored and makes me thinking strange stuffs like this. But at least i didn't think that i'm having a demonic behaviour. But if i were, how cool is that! Muahahaha!