Ahh.. New blog site..

I just got back from Johor. Feel a bit tired. I had this migraine since I went back Johor. I dont know what the hell happened to my brain. Until now, I still have it.. Argh!! Feels like to chop my head off!!
I feel a bit emotional for two days. I keep thinking about the things that happend last time. Fuck man!! I should not think about it.. I almost cried think about it.. Ohh sometimes I wish I never been born..
I feel I gained weight.. Put on a kilo i think. Havent go to gym for almost a week. Shit!! Now I feel so conscious about my weight... Damn!! I have to mantained my weight after months to shed 20+kg off.. I'm not gonna be a fat again..
Karen C smsed me, but I dont have creadit to reply. Bout something, she need help.. I wish I could reply to her now, tomorrow first thing in morning!
I need sleep, my head really aching.. Shit! If only I know what is wrong in my head.

K guys.. Nite..

Argh!! My PC dead..

I missed 2 days of posting.. I'm not lazy..
My PC was really lagging last few days, after installing Norton Internet Security. If you guys think that a good program.. Don't you ever think about to install it.!! It makes your PC lag like hell. So I uninstall it, then all the problem start. I can't log in my MSN Messenger, my connection slows down and my PC still lag, then last night at 12am I started to reformat my hard disk and reinstall win xp.
For past 2 days, there so much things going on.
My gym mates missed me, coz for past few days I prefer to come in morning, so we didnt meet, the reason, I having class in da afternoon and there something to do in the evening.
Last thursday, I went to watch movie with Karen L, "Day After Tomorrow" or in translation "Lusa".. I was a good movie. Arghh!! My mum called again asking me about working.. I hate that!! It ticked me!! She keep asking me about it.. It's not like I didnt look for jobs, I'm waiting for call, damn this people, when they gonna start calling me.. SO MUM PLEASE STOP NAGGING ME!! DONT MAKE ME NOT PICK UP UR CALL!! I think she's a bit stress out coz my brother getting marry next week, and he's gonna start studying, he's been out of job for 3 months now, and she didnt nag him, I just finished my study for less than a month.. and she nags me like I'm jobless for 2 years.. Hey, when my brother just finish his, he was jobless for 3 months, working for almost a year, then quit,when back johor, jobless more than 6 months, but she didnt nag.. but why to me!!
I'm going back BP today, i'm not sure how's my feeling.. I dont have a joy feeling of going back at all. Maybe if I got a job, and having a life here, I think I'm not gonna going back home at all. My feeling toward my mum was like love and hate relationship, I'm not close with her, actually to most of my family, so i think i better of alone..

Missed it..

I too tired yesterday to post my blog. I'm gonna to it later.. Tonite..

Feeling lucky..

Wow.. I think this is gonna be the luckiest week in my life. Having to win 2 separate contest in just two days.

Yesterday I received a sms tells me that I won 2 tickets to catch the world premier of "Day After Tomorrow" and then today, I receives a Pos Ekspress that contains 2 passes of the Starlight Cinema that gonna be held next month, worth RM60. I feel so lucky!! Then, when I chat with Karen C afterwards, she also won 6 passes for the same occasion. Now it's gonna be 10 of us going!! Imagine that!! We gonna have a blast that night.. Just hoping that we gonna go on the same day...
This thing sure bring me a big smile today, coz ever since wakes-up, I wasnt feeling so cheerful (lacks of endorphine). Having to win these two tickets, sure brighten up my day, I didnt even go to gym today!! Hahahaha...

Of had a quick chat with Hung Seah.. my exschoolmate from BP. We talk about working, since I'm jobless and well he's too.. and our exschoolmate getting marry this Saturday!! Hahaha one by one getting married, what about me?? Not even a girlfriend yet!! Argh!! Dont wanna think about it!! If the fate says I will, I will if didn't I cant blame it!! Let me tell you a secret... Nah!! Don't want la..

Ohh.. Someone missed me in the gym... tsk! tsk! Chings called me at around 9pm. Of course we talk rubbish for 40 mins. Hahaha sure hell of fun..!! It's been awhile I didn't talked crap stuffs!!

Okay guys.. I'm out now..

P/s : Hung Seah.. I'm supposed to tell you something right? I can't remember what I'm supposed to write here..

Lazy day...

Uargh!! I feel so tired... even I just woke up. Haha I didn't go to gym yesterday.. Hanging out with Lulu and then with Ken later at night. We watch movie last night. First in morning Lulu and me watched 'Secret Window'. Kindda good movie. Johnny Depp really good on bringing this kind of character. Then we meet up with Denise.. and she was alone. Something wrong with her and the boyfriend. We had late lunch later afterwards. Later, after that, I feel like eating ice-cream, so we were planning to go to lecka-lecka (italian gelato - it's a heaven!) but somehow Lulu saw this vacancy notice at this Japanese restaurant. End up he applied for job there. Hmm.. I wanted a job so bad these days. I can't apply there coz it's a non halal restaurant. For past few days, Lulu has been talking about jobs, currently he's working at this western restaurant that gonna open soon, but he doesn't like some people there, even the owner is really kind to him. He got another job offer in One Utama, but the payment is RM 300 less. So he couldn't choose between the two. I just tell him to pick where he has the strongest feeling towards to.
Later last night, Ken asked me to go out. So I agreed. So I draged along Lulu, we went watch 'Van Helsing'. It's kindda good, but too much animation that's looks like a cartoon. But I enjoyed it. Esp drooling over Kate. WOW!! Then that night, out of nowhere, we end up in Sri Hartamas for yum cha. Just for a quickie.. Headed back to my place.
I didn't know how on earth I get close with Ken, we were in same college but hardly talk untill before we went for industrial training. A big group of us went to clubbing. Then we start talking. Coz most of us were drunk except me and him, there something else happened to one of our friend. Only me and him were there. So it kindda make us close because of that experience. Hmm.. I was wondering bout it's so easy for me to get close with someone, but I have to set a limit between that. I don't want same thing happend again like last time between me and J (not Justin). So last night before sleeping I was thinking bout this. Then I started to think that something could be prevented if I were mature enough last time. I kindda miss that moments. It maybe sound so gayish.. but it just a mutual feeling between buddies. Now, it's all over.. I still look at the bright sight. I become much better as a friend and overall as person. I just hoping for all the good thing will happen to him. GOOD LUCK ON EVERYTHING U DO, MAN!!
Oh.. Yesterday I won 2 tickets to watch 'Day After Tomorrow' premier in KLCC this thursday. This would be the first ever I won something for a contest. I dont know whom shall I bring. I need to collect the ticket today.. But I have a class today..
After class I had to go to gym.. It feel so bad everytime I skipped...

Kinda a good day..

I got back from gym around 9.30pm. I was trying to wait for Parry for her to finish her working so we can go back together. But Lulu called me. He needs the house key, he been staying with me for few days already. He can't stay in his house coz it's not ready yet. But nevermind bout it.
Today at the gym, I meet Chings.. I knew her from KDU, she's now unemployed just like me. She's a mass comm grads. Waiting to further her study, she join gym since a week ago. No wonder she missed called me today. I knew that she must be in the gym. I had few workout with her. Until I meet Kak Nita (whom I meet her last 2 weeks). Wah!! She so cool for a mother of 16 years old and 3 years old daughter. She can dance.. Better than me.
Kak Nita, Sha aka Bobby, Chings and me went to Hi-Lo class, but Chings quit half way. Coz this class is all about dancing. So guess who the spotlight... Kak Nita la... Hehehe
Oh before the class, I bumped to Sha, and she was asking who is Chings. Then she made a remarks bout the girls i been mixed around in da gym. Yeah I kindda notice that, I mix alot with the female friend in da gym than the guys. Maybe when you workout the testeron level is high. but somehow, all the females there are nice, and they seems to talk to me, even we just meet. Sha said that I'm a playboy... I wish.. It just me.. I kindda easy to mix with the female counterpart. But nevermind.. I think some of the guys knows that, they keep looking at me, like envying me.. hahaha.. perasan..
After the class, as usual the drink bar was filled-up with the thirsty hippo.. hahah thirsty gym junkies.. the there was this guy sitting alone, so i joined him. His name is Kenny. Then we talk.. actually I'm the one who broke the ice ( I notice I become more friendly since joining gym, talk to stranger - endophine effects), than we chat. Wow! This is the first male guy that I know from gym, since back from penang..Then later, his friend join us. Her name is Janice. Another female.. They were asking me, since that I told them I come there almost everyday, what I'm doing rite now.. So I told them I was a Chef student looking for job. That's makes them really excited. Yeah! Most of the people get excited when I told them I'm a soon-to-be-a chef. How great is it? How easy for you to make new friend if you open up.
Then later on, after I showered, I sat at this empty table, class finishing.. those thristy junkie all rushing to get drinks. But none of them wanting to ask me to sit down joining me.. Like I did to Kenny.. Hmm.. I think those people arent as open as me.. Or maybe I'm too brave or over confidence to make friends.. I dont know.. Or maybe I have this image of dont messed up with me kindda thing.. coz of my eyebrow piercing.. maybe.. who knows...
This morning, Sabrina told me that everyone in Penang asking about me.. She ask me to join her back in Penang.. It's a good idea.. but I'm going back to Johor this weekend. Moreover, I dont have money... Hmm.. It seems that those people appreciate me as a friend more that some KDU friends..
I chatted with Justin last night.. telling him about how I felt in penang.. how they had treated me.. But I dont mind if he decide that I'm not his friend, coz I dont think he is.. I started to reject most of them because from what had happened in Penang.. I started feeling why I did this think, and worry it too much.. Just let it go.. I dont want to hate anyone.. Hating people just makes you tired to think about it. I didnt hate them.. I just ignore them.
Just now I chatted with Ai Vee. She's a HR staff in Golden Sands. A nice girl. To tell the truth, I had a crush on her, but I didnt go. Coz it would make so difficult to deal with everything that might happened. Like I'm coming back to KL and she's a chinese and I'm Malay.. So I just decided to let the feeling go. Now we just friend. It seems much better. Easy to talk to her, and easy to kutuk her without the hard feeling.. Ok la.. I think that's it.. Need to go to sleep.. wakes up early, and do my daily regimen of becoming slavery of those dumb bell and stationary bicycle. Good Nite..

First step... Blogging..

Hi! This is my first blogging. I don't why I have to do this blogging, maybe I wanted to express what's going on in my mind to everyone who might wanted to know. So this is it.. Let's start..

Hmm.. Monday.. again.. Sometimes I like Monday, coz it the first day of the week.. I can start all the stuffs that I postponed last week.. Which I have a lot to do..
I need to get a job.. My mom start calling and asking me about it. She thought that I didn’t even looking for a job. I did! It just that I've been picky. Now, not anymore.. I've been standing still for too long.. I'm getting restless without anything to do, besides going to the gym. Last Friday I went to Starbuck for barista.. I hope I got it.

Today my day start a bit blur.. Having to wake up early coz I have to meet Sabrina in the gym, I got to know her when I was in Penang.. Her hometown is in Taman Megah in PJ. She called me last Friday. So we had one class together, Body Pump. That was her first time. I was surprised. And tomorrow we meet up again. Meeting her makes me missed penang so much!! I missed Shida, Kimmy, Fuzah and some of the trainees there and all the gym junkies there. Shakira, Elaine, Wenisa, Judy, Mrs. Lim, Shima, Ohm, Datin Noor, Francis, "Double Sided Guy" and list could go on... Although having to know these people for 2 months, but I feel good hanging out with them. Maybe I was desperately lonely, I was being ousted by my-so-called friends there. That was another story..

Last Saturday, I meet up with Karen.. She still like the last time we meet up, didn’t change much but look prettier. It's nice to see her.. Kind of missed her... When I arrived, she was reading the Four Agreements book, I have the same book, I bought it last year, when I'm facing a big problem with my used-to-be my closest buddy in KDU. But now, ever since that, I seldom read it. I don’t know why. I’ve been busy lately with my study and gym thing. I’m becoming a gym junkie.. It makes me feel good. Inside and outside. Gym totally change my life. Meeting up new friends, sweat out.. learning yoga.. and much much more.

I think that’s it for now.. Maybe later, tonight. Gonna eat something..