The graduation, the best gift and the night out...

The graduation... Ahh at last, I'm graduated. The ceremony was great!! Karen's speech was really good... And I won the IMI Award and it's a watch, WENGER a Swiss made watch. And the best gift I had was my dad hugged me!! As far I could remember, he never hug me before in my adult life.

And later that night, the dinner ball, was good. I sat together with Ricky, and Elaine and her friend. I don't really care bout what's going on at that night, we just eat and talk among us. Me and Elaine never spoken more than 10 sentences when we were in the college, but that night we talk like we were good friend. First time I known her was back in first semester, when she running the Dinning Room Service class, and need someone to come for her service, so she ask me, and I said yes... That's about it, after that we just say hi and bye... Untill that night...

Later, Karen, Parry, Rick and me went out clubbing... At first we went to Espanda... And it wasn't a good place... The reason we went there because of Parry want to hang out with her batch, Raymond and all... And Karen didn't like it... So we went out earlier, and planing to to go Bar Savanh to join Chings groups (aka with Susan, Suleen and Mike)... I want them to know each other since only me know them... BUT IT WAS DAMN PACK!!! I couldn't get myself in at all... Plan changed!!! End up at Liquid... Yeah... It's not an 'ordinary' club... But it was a good experience... Got back home at 5am... Yeah I had fun that night, end up getting MC from working the next day!!! Muahahaha!!

The grad's briefing...

The graduation briefing was fine. Meeting up with few students that I know. Some of them was surprise that I look different. Hahaha... So it's confirm that I won the IMI Award along side Karen and Ricky. Later that night Denise (and her boyfriend), Cherlyn,
Preeta, Malcolm and me went out... And it's not that good and it was boring. Supposed Alifa together with us, but then cancelled last minute. Coz of the crowd in Budaba. That place suck!! But got the chances to meeting with Malcolm. He's one of the close friend that I known from KDU. We catching up few things. And then, we all end up at mamak in Bangsar.

Tired for work today...

	I don't feel like working today... My body aching... My head heavy and my nose watery... Feel like fever but don't have temperature... Must be lethargic. Hahaha!! Must be excuses of my laziness...
And Microsoft finally release the Windows XP SP 2... But I'm not sure if I really want to download... Maybe after I get new hardisk...

I've just been confirmed...

The junior Sous Chef told me that I've been confirmed!! What a short period of probation. I thought that probation should be at least 3 months. Hmm.. Means I'm good!!! And today, I've been working for 12 hours non-stop, coz I'd someone else job!!! Coz I didn't know that wasn't my job. Tired like hell and angry!!! Now the hard part....
I'm don't know how to tell to the Chefs that I'm leaving to US... Should I told them now, or shall I wait until October. I'm feeling guilty especially to Clay (the Jr Sous Chef)... I think he trusts me and thus giving the job to me straight away and to Chef Billy for taking and always concern about me (and to other staffs, he's the nice Chef). What should I do???
I really wanted to go to US for the experiences not the money. I really want to learn more and I hope to be in pastry kitchen. But come to think about it, my current job isn't my cup of tea, coz I really want to be a pastry chef!! I can't waste my time anymore... I'm getting older...
And I cut my both index fingers, my right middle finger (thanks to the pineapple!!!) and skin on both my palm peeling coz touching too much water!! I'm getting sleepy... Take my bath and ZzzZZzzZZ...

Busy... busy... busy...

Whoa!! Last night I'm working alone in the cold kitchen and it was busy of all sudden... Damn shit I was panic!! Thank God somebody help me!! If not I'm gonna get crazy!! Early morning my first brother, Emi, called me to ask if I interested to work in The Four Season Langkawi... But I told him that I'm going to US.
Oh ya!! I haven't tell this to my family yet!! Maybe soon after I submit the form. That's all for now... Since I'm working I have no interesting things to tell here...

Hard life...

Guess that money are not easy to earn... I'm learning it rite now. Lately I've been working non-stop, I'm holding my social life, gym and sort coz of my job. I've been working from 7am till 9pm everyday.

Now, I'm used to my job in the kitchen. I can work smoothly, although my CDP is a BITCH!! I just ignore it... It's ok for her to treat me this way coz I know one day she will know that I'm much better than her, coz she only knows her jobs while I know the cullinary world better than her... I can go further than her...

Just now, while working, the Exec Chef for Lemon Garden asked me if I'm happy working there, I told him, it's ok. But actually there's something that bother me, especially the way the staff treating me. I got the feeling that these people don't like me at all. But I still managed to ignore it. I don't want to make such a fuss about it. Well, I'm new, so these people trying to show how great they are. Whatever!!!

By the way, I'm leaving sooner than I had expected. In mid Oct. So good bye shangrila good bye malaysia... I'm leaving to New Orleans for 18 months. The sad part is that, I can't celebrate

Hari Raya with my family for the last time. :( So I will resign my job in mid Oct, and spend my times with my family... I need to settle my passport and visa for next month. So everything will go smoothly before I leaving. Will miss everyone!!! Ok... that's all...

Born to try...

Born To Try by Delta Goodrem
Hear it here!!

Doing everything that I believe in
Going by the rules that I've been taught
More understanding of what's around me
And protected from the walls of love

All that you see is me
And all I truly believe

That I was born to try
I've learned to love
Be understanding
And believe in life
But you've got to make choices
Be wrong or right
Sometimes you've got to sacrifice the things you like

But I was born to try

No point in talking what you should have been
And regretting the things that went on
Life's full of mistakes, destinies and fate
Remove the clouds look at the bigger picture

And all that you see is me
And all I truly believe

That I was born to try
I've learned to love
Be understanding
And believe in life
But you've got to make choices
Be wrong or right
Sometimes you've got to sacrifice the things you like

But I was born to try

All that you see is me
All I truly believe
All that you see is me
And all I truly believe

That I was born to try

I've learned to love
Be understanding
And believe in life
But you've got to make choices
Be wrong or right
Sometimes you've got to sacrifice the things you like

But I was born to try

But you've got to make choices
Be wrong or right
Sometimes you've got to sacrifice the things you like

But I was born to try

I'm hook-up with this song... It's really what I need to hear at these time. Cause I feel that I lost somewhere in my own dream. I couldn't decide what I want to do in this live. Most of the times I sit in the conner of my room after working figuring what I want, I really want to be succesfull, but I know it won't happened in one day. Rome wasn't build in one day. My affection towards my job getting strong but I keep figuring out what I'm doing is the right thing or I really wanted to do. But at least I tried if I failed. I was born to try.

It's not bag it's luggage...

Yeah.. my eye bags turning to eye luggages.. I lack of sleeping... If only I could sleep the whole day... I just can't wait for my off day this Thursday... Another one more day!! I have my split shift and my CDP... I can't wait to go abroad... I can't wait to open my own cafe/restaurant... And most importantly, I CAN'T WAIT FOR MY SALARY TO BANK IN!!! I'M BROKE!! I need to take my nap now, coz later have to go back to work again...

C yaa!!

The worst day ending the good week...

My bike's tire flat on my way to the work today... Then I parked it infront of the hotel... And the carburetor was stolen. Damn!! I just repaired the carburetor early this week!!! Next week is going to be spit shift gonna be like 7am-3pm then 7pm-9pm. If I didn't get new carburetor it's gonna be a problem. Why must it happened now??!! Did I mention I been transferred to other kitchen? Now I'm in room service kitchen, damn busy... and last night, I had to do on my own... after 2 days training... Arghh!! My CDP thought that I known everything... they use different bread for sandwiches, plates and garnishing for different outlet.. Even everything from the same kitchen... This kitchen cater not only room service, but to ala carte menu for lobby and lemon garden. So I have to memorize all the shit!!! But I kindda like this kitchen coz it's cold. Hahah that's about it...

I'm a messenger boy...
Yeah... I'm the person has to pickup all the inter kitchen transfer form other kitchen... So everyday I had to pushed the trolley to pickup things from 8 different kitchens or outlets.

Ohh, by the way... I recieved the US thingy form... and Eric already submited it, and it wasn't complete... typical of him...

Why again...?

My bike broke down, AGAIN!!! When I wish things getting better... it getting worst!!! Argh!!! Now I have to settle for bus, but how I'm going back on Sunday??? Coz I'm working at 3-11 and the last train would be at 11pm... Damn SHIT!!!

Anyway, last night I had a very weird dream, I dreamt a talking baby... He said something but I can't remember. I didn't have a good night sleep recently, always awake for every hour interval. And I only sleep for about 4 to 5 hours a day since my schedule really sucks!!!

And yesterday, someone from the net found my Yahoo! Messenger add in the member directory, and we started chatting few hours since her first message (coz I'm working). We started to exchange phone number and or phone number almost identical. Weird... Okay to get the idea how similar our numbers, here how, let say mine is 012BCCCDAD and her's is 012BCCCDDE. How's that?!! I need to get some sleep and start to think how on earth I need the money to repair my bike, since I almost bankrupt.... Hmm...

What I am...?

Hmm... I guess I know this will comes... I'm not sure if I working in kitchen in really the path that I should take. It seems that I really don't enjoy it as much as before. Everytime I try to think that I'm doing the rite thing, the possitive thoughts.. the negatives will follow later. Everymorning before I leave to work, I keep the positive thoughts, but later when something wrong happened on my job, I started to think negative about it. I don't know what to do.... I'm confused... But then again.. I always say to myself to hold on, maybe only for few months, for me to get use to this. I just hoping it gets better...

The whole week...

Nothing to extraordinary to be mentioned for past few days. I met-up few KDU students and in my surprised I met with Chien. His a Lulu ex-roomate aka Josh friend. His been working in Shang for almost a month.

I've been transfered to another kitchen, room service kitchen starting next week. And today... I was in the wrong working shift. Hahaha my shift supposedly at 3 - 11 but I went there at 9am. So I have to go back... I wasted 2 hours of mylife traveling for nothing...

Ohh.. Malcolm managed to get my number, as I'm was trying to get his... Finally we managed to contact after months of silence between us. We gonna meet-up anyway soon for next week.

It's official that I didn't get selected for the valedictorian speech. Hahaha... Karen got it. Congrats!! But at least my name being mentioned.

Being too lazy...

It's been a while... I started my first day in kitchen today. I didn't give high hope because I know I will devistated if it doesn't turn out to be as what I aspected. But anyway, it turn to be ok. Yes, there's still arrogant person to be bossy... it's a norm. But I feel okay...

I'm gonna sleep now. Later on my day off will update about my experiences...

I just been brainwashed...

My first day in Shangri-La brings back my Penang memories... Hahaha... Today, tomorrow and the day after tomorrow are just orientation or should I say brainwash sessions about Shangri-La... So there's nothing great to be mentioned in today's blog. See yaa!!!

P/s : Had yum cha again with Chings, Suleen and Susan... Hmm... it's been like this since I got to know them (Suleen and Susan).

What are u looking at?..

Last two nights, I hanged out with Azam in KL for whole night. I didn't paid a single sen for it. Paid by his friend. My other yum cha girlfriends called me. But I have to give my priority to him, since he's been my good friend for almost 10 years. And the last time I saw him was 7 months ago, he helped me to send my stuffs to Penang. He spend a night with me.

Morning, my elder brother, nephew (Adam) and my parents visited me. My first sis-in-law didn't came coz my niece is in the hospital. I hope she's getting better. OOO... My parents gonna get a new bike for me...

I went to gym after so long being ignoring bout gym. I went with Suleen. Later then, went to One Utama with her and Chings, Susan and some of their friends. And this there's a guy named R, which I feel that he didn't like me. Coz later, we had yum cha, he said something to Susan about me, but I didn't hear, but Susan asked him to shut-up. This guy is rude... Extremly fucking rude. He kept looking at me... What's wrong with you man?? I didn't do anything wrong to you... Before we left, he asked Chings what's my name. HELLO YOU MORON, we'd been introduced before in Burger King!!! STUPID ASSHOLE DUSHBAG DWEEB MORON!!! Of course being a gentleman, I said my name and shook hand with him... And Chings told me, he's been like that to all her guy friends before. What a LOOSER!!!

Tomorrow will be my first day in Shangri-La.. Hope for the best... Good night...