I just been crowned...

My pocket hurts... It hurts so much I can't even touch it anymore... You got it right... It's my pocket... Why I had to spend almost RM1000 for my tooth... One had to be crowned, one had to be extracted and two need do the refilling...

At first, it was just a regular dental check-up but one of my teeth cracked so the doctor said the teeth need to be crowned since the top layered was badly cracked. The one that need to be extracted coz actually it need to be refilled but since I did something to the teeth ages ago and it was quite bad. The filling is loose, the teeth can't hold it anymore. So he advise that just extract the teeth and do the bridge. The other tooth that need to be refilled started to tear-out. And now my gum hurts coz he had to remove some for the crowing process. Hmm... I always have this problem with my tooth since small. It's not like I didn't take care, I brushed my teeth twice a day sometime 3 times a day. I used mouth wash, floss and this past three years I'm using oral-b powered tooth brush. But then again still having problems. It just in my gene that I'm having bad set of tooth. My next appointment would be next Tuesday, for the extraction. And when I'm coming back from US, I have to do the bridge. Duit lagi...

UPDATE ON MY US TRIP
I emailed the AIPT (the agent that going to be my visa host, they the one who handling all the paper work for me to apply the visa) asking about my current status. And I got some kind a bad news... It seems that my host employer The Hotel, has not give the required information. Hmm... I'm out if patient now... Here I pasted the email that I just received. Of course I remove some of the sensitive information... U noe what? If all this settle, I'm going to celebrate not because I'm leaving but because of the work that I had to do and the amount of energy that I had to be patient.

New home...

As for today, I decided to change my server to my own. So head to http://elmiza.org for my blog site.

My visit to college...

I went to college today, to collect my caution fee. Well, I'm supposed to meet-up with Mr Eddie but he wasn't there. But I meet-up with Karen Lim. We had a met-up last Friday night. So it was just to say hi...

It seems that my blog is all about what I did during the whole day, other than that is nothing...

Hmm... I've been thinking about marriage. It's not like I want to get married or what... Few of my friends getting marry this weekend and a week afterthat. It just make me thinking about how am I doing in life... I don't mean your status of relationship is the measurement of success in your life fulfillment but its the status on the assurance in your life. Meaning that, the people who are married they must have the luxury in confident and certainty in terms of finance, social, commitment and self esteem. I think among all four, I only have one, the social part.

Socially I'm balanced. I think. I'm not over socialize with the people who I'm not supposed to socialize with ie I'm happy with my current friends. I think they are great! I always easy to know and meet a new people. I'm happy to hang-out with all my friends. But there still something missing, the right person who I supposed to love.

As for the other three, financially- well now I'm still struggling to earn money, well I'm jobless at the moment, looking forward to work in US. Commitment - well at this moment, I put all the commitment in my job, giving everything to fulfill my dream in my career, just not in relationship yet. Self esteem - It's kindda hard to explain what I think about my self esteem. It's pretty low right now. I'm 25 years old. Still struggling. I'm jealous with my ex-classmate who still young and have a lot of years to come for them to explore the culinary world. The only things that better between me and them is my maturity. That's all. That's why I fight with myself to get everything that I dream of, like going to US and being the top student. But after college I feel have to start all over again. Gaining back my self esteem. Going back Johor last month didn't help. Mixed around with my friends, just make me feel small... They are much successful than me. Getting paid at least RM2500+ a month is enough to show how good they are compare with me. I'm not saying that how much you get is the measurement, but it takes years to get that amount of money if you work in hotel industry in Malaysia. Hmm... Life.

As for now, I'm very comitted about my work.. I don't think I will get married soon. Untill I reach 30 years old or maybe forever. So if anyone asked me if will I ever get married, well it depends.

It's been a while...

How shall I start again? Well I feel sorry for not updating my blog for a month. Sorry guys... Esp Hung Seah who is so keen to know what's I been up to.. Sorry... It just, lately being jobless I have nothing interesting to write. Everyday it's been as usual, the whole day that passed by seems like I'm repeating the day before.

I went back Johor for a month. Helping my aunty making cookies for Raya. Raya was good, gathered with family and friends. All of my uncles and aunties know about my departure to US. Well I guessed my mum told everyone about it. I met with my grandmother, and she doing ok. Have I mentioned that she's having a Parkinson's. Although now she can utter the words better than before but still she can't walk.

Spending myself back in Johor had made me gained few kilos... Well all the glory food!! Other than my weight problem, four of my friends getting married next month, which is a clear sign for me to get serious with life. Hahaha...

Oh, by the way, my trip to US has been postponed due to the two stupid b@#$%&ds that were supposed to go with me. They didn't responed with the agent (AIPT) to pay another half of the payment. Well the AIPT thought that we are going as a group, so they waited for them to reply but they just kept quiet. So I had to contact the guy is London about this and there were a lot of email corresponded to fix the misunderstanding. Well, gladly it's finally over, so now I'm back on track although delayed. The good thing is that I'm going there alone. YES!! Oh by the way, the guy in London really pissed with them and most probably he will not help another student to do this program. Sad :(

Anyway... I'm going to Perak to meet up with Padil before going back to Johor for my friends wedding... Isk! What should I buy for them??? Karen Chan b'day gift sumore... Aiyoo matilaa...