Satay Kajang in Damansara Utama...

Well I had satay for my buka puasa (break fast)... Alone... Thanks to someone who cancel the plan last minute (15 minutes before meet up). If I know that I ended up eating alone I would had buy something and eat in my room... I'm pissed actually... But nevermind though... at least I have my satay all by myself... Harharhar... And next time, I won't ever make plan with her again... Actually at first was reluctant because the last time she asked me for dinner was a big messed up... She didn't want to eat at mamak, which I was planned to go alone, and wanting to eat somewhere that has class... oooggg whatever! And keep asking me where and what to eat (even she knows that I want to eat at mamak)... Annoying... And we had our dinner an hour and half afterwards... Sorry to say, but I've become a biatch now... Har Har Har!!! Har!

OO can't wait to go back Johor... At least there's not much issues for me to have my dinner later... And can't wait to help my auntie makes cookies for Raya!!! I missed kitchen; the heat, the smell the oven and the pain when touching the hot pan without ovencloth!! Ouch!!

Surprise visit...

I had a surprise visit from a good friend of mine... Aliyah called at 2am, luckily I didn't sleep yet. I went out and met with her at Uptown... nearby my house... Had our sahur and talk for a while... Catching up some stuff...

The lost bond...

Is it just me or happened to everyone? It seems that I lost the bond between me and someone that supposed to be important to everyone... I don't feel missing the bond, the attachment, I feel like I'm loosing it... Maybe if I'm away for awhile I can appriciate the bond, but even I've been living away for years, I don't feel missing the person... Weird... I'm weird... I hope I'm not going to loose the person before the actual person gone by all mean. I'm all alone...

Hmm.. It's been months since the last time I meet KC... Before, we always had a casual meeting but lately after I was away for months in Penang, and since I got back here, I think we only met for about not more that 5 times... The last time we met was back in July... Met up at Burger King, KLCC... Not that I'm complaining, but soon, if things go well, I will not able to see her after I'm back in Johor...

It's up!!!

KDU Graduation 2004,
originally uploaded by aja.

My graduation photo already up in my flickr site!! Go ahead and take a look!!!

Nothing...

Again... There's nothing for me to write today... I had a hair cut. Looks good and cheap too..
Parry went missing the whole day (later in the evening she sms me that her gum are in pain), I went to Chings place to actually scan my documents but her computer doen't have the software to scan. It's raining since I got back from her house. I had KFC and salad to break my fast. Althought I almost soaked myself on the way there... I didn't think much today, pretty layback today... My email client very quiet today, only some stranger sending email to chat with me using MSN Messenger... This is the second for this week... And this week I added 4 new contacts.

Over an ice-cream...

Had a talk with friends at Baskin' Robbins... Although I'm fasting, looking them licking the Bavarian Chocolate Ice-cream very tempting... The talk basically about jobs and future undertaking... and some crap, jokes and jokes... As usually, if going out with Chings, seems to full of laughter... *playing Tamil song* Hahahahaha...

I got my graduation photos from Parry, although she forgoten to bring the CD, nevermind... Wow!! I look very different at that moment... Now, I gained a bit weight... It's ok, fasting month, can loose a bit more weight. As soon as I get the CD, I'll post it in Flickr. Untill then, bonne nuit!!

Useless knowledge...

This is nothing big... I just discovered when I was chatting with Karen that if you spell iPod with exclamation mark and flipped it horizontally and then vertically(correction) it still spells iPod!...

Hehehe... I'm obsessed with iPod... iPod! iPod! I think I'll get it before I'm leaving so I can bring my huge collection of music (update : 18 GB of 3212 mp3s, if I played it takes 9 day and 3 hours to play all the songs) over to US, so I won't get bore in the flight!! Oh shit, if I get the 20GB version, left only 2GB of space... Damn!! Need to buy the 40GB then...

And Malaysia Airlines just added new destination to Stockholm... and it's affecting the flight to New York... The journey to New York from KL takes 24 hrs... Imagine that!!

Catching up with Theo...

Went out to have dinner (yeah, but I had early dinner by myself before that) with Theo and Suleen... Catching up some news... Nothing much really... We talked and I got more information about living in London, because London gonna be my next stopover!!! Will let Parri know about all the info...

Hmm.. other than that, there's nothing really happened today, because the whole day I spend it in my room...

Ohhh... My friend Karen's blog site has to be shut down due to certain circumstances... She's a bit pissed with it and sad, coz it's been a part of her all these while... I hope she found a new way round to publish all her words back in some other way....

Lay back day...

Been with Parri and Chings whole day, hung-out at Chings place. Basically watching Astro, how I missed TV... Haven't watching TV for more than 4 months... Took some photos of her cats, accompanied them for lunch and back to Chings house for more TV...

We did discussed about job... Yeah same old thing between me and Parri... It's hard to find something that we wanted... Although I'm happy with being a cooker or someone working in kitchen, it just that right now, I'm jobless. I'm looking for part time, because I'm going back Johor for raya and going to spend time there, before leaving to States. And she... well she's still looking for something... and both of us realize that we are old, yeah 25 years old. And just start-up... *Sigh*
One more thing, the reason I don't want to work full time now, because I want to go back to Johor for raya and I'm having this weird feeling that this might be my last Raya in Malaysia... Lately, I have this feeling that I might be staying in oversea for long time and it just occurred to me, when I was in Penang, I met this guys who looks into my horoscope, as he was saying that something I be leaving Malaysia for a long time... And he also told me that, I might change work a lot this year, which kindda true... Maybe it's coincident maybe it's true... But I believe that, anything that happened there must be a reason... You just have to realize it... and acknowledge it!! And right now, I'm so jaded staying at home!!! I wish I could cook... Please someone out there who have a complete or partly completed kitchen, invite me to cook in your house!! But no pork please and can you pay me as well?? Hehehehe

At 7.35, after some very sad movie, "Life as a house" in HBO, we (Parri, Chings, Joven and me) headed up to break my fast... Had to wait till the movie finished. I had not-so-good Char Kuey Teow and later had a McDonald's Chocolate Sundea...

Got back home around 9pm, loaded up my photos in Flickr. Eheheh.. Missed tarawikh...

Oh!! I'm having a diarrhea now!! Must be from the Char Kuey Teow!!! Damn!!! Going to sleep now!! I'm feeling a bit hungry... and there's nothing to eat... Tomorrow gonna be oats and snickers for sahur....

It's all about jazz...

Lately I feel so comfortable when listening to jazz song... It's weird... coz the only moment when I'm listening to jazz when I getting ready to go to bed. But now, when I wake-up in the morning I have to put jazz song, or at least slow soothing songs... Currently I'm like Minnie Driver and Queen Latifah debut albums, Ray Charles, Rod Stewart latest album and of course Norah Jones...

I think I'm getting old... or I change... I'm not sure... But I still do like trance, hip hop and other type of genre but I feel more comfortable with jazz. Maybe because I'm losing my mind...

Trip back to Johor...

Hahaha.. was planing to go back to Johor... But my parents are here... I was almost got in the bus in Pudu, until I decided to made a call to my dad... And he's here, in my brother place... I had to return back to my shack in DU. Wasted of my time...

I was thinking if I can't get to US... What am I going to do? Working in hotel, restaurant or KDU? I have to make a plan... Argh!! But one thing that I know is, I have to make everything goes smoothly... A bit worry though... Someone that I know in gym told me that, even you have a visa doesn't mean you can enter US, depends on your luck... Shit!!! What if I can't enter US?? What am I supposed to do?? Have to come back home?? That's make me worry...

First day fasting...

KIF_5763,

I forgot to wake up to have my sahur (a meal before the dawn)... But I had late dinner... Went to college to get my transcript. Then went out with Parri. We went to watch movie, "The Stepford Wives". Then went acompany her for lunch, since I'm fasting... Met up with Benedict... I think there's nothing to tell what happened, because avoiding personal stuffs that we being discussed on that day... Too personal (not me, someone else) to talk about... But I had a splendid day!!!

Got back home, took my nap and woke up... wait till breaking fast... Had dinner at 10pm... for fasting tomorrow...

Huh??

It was a final day for me to get a part time job... Yup I got a job but not part time, full time. Okay.. I don't really mind if I got full time job, but I was offered a mid level management in one of the fast food chain in M'sia. Huh??? All I was looking was a simple job in mean time I'm waiting to go to US. I'm not sure about it. I have to let it down... Maybe I will ascertain next time that I'm looking for part time job... that's it!!!

Ok... Then I went to watch a movie. It was my first movie since Shrek 2... I used to be movie freak when I was in UPM till KDU time... I still remember that sometimes I'd seen about 3 movies per week. That's the average... Now... Hardly a movie per month... I think it's good... Meaning I have something else to do beside spending RM 9 for each movie. First my plan was to catch "Exorcist: The Begining" but I changed my mind, instead I bought "Ladder 49". But I get mixxed up with the screen and accidently I went to the wrong screen, ended up in "Exorcist"... Hahahaha... It was my first time such thing happened to me... Nevermind, I did enjoyed the movie... Oh, before that I bumped into Azam, he was alone... But I was late to catch the movie... We plan to meet-up after the movie since he also going watch a movie... But later on, my cellphone dead... I couldn't call him. And he smsed me to let me know he had to rush back. And I got a urgent sms from a close friend. I called her... And what a surprised that she just got fired... I was astounded!! Later we met up... She told me what had happened. Hmm... I don't know what to say... but just hoping she can get a new job and all well for her London trip!! Wish you luck!!!

Not a evenfull day...

Nothing...

My Friendster profile...

This is my current friendster profile... Just want something to write about...

ABOUT ME
Very complicated, risk taker, erratics, and nonsense guy!! Comfortable with myself for being judged. Open-minded, sexually challanged (hahaha), always question people motives when they want to get close with me (thanks from my past experiences), dirty minded, always making sardonic remarks and lazy person!!! Always hopping that money grows on trees...

I like to do shopping for furniture and house/home stuffs... IKEA is my fav place. Eletronic gadgets store aka Sony Wings and Best Denki is my kindda place... Gym is the place I socialize instead of doing workout... Mamak is the place I stuffed myself, Baskin Robbins where I indulging my guilt free bad habit. Starbucks the place where I think I need time to chill out with overly charged cuppa. Internet is the place when I'm horny... Kensapothecary is where I wasted my money to buy grooming product, lab series for men is the product I trust to combat my problematic skin (zits), pharmacy is where I seek medical advices instead goin to doctor, kinokuniya where I read my books instead of buying it (unless it's a really good book), Karen Chan where I seek for help (advices), friends where I need fun, and me, where my friends need help, Levi's is da only jeans I have, One utama is da place u can see me when I'm free.. iPod is the thing I really want rite now... and New Orleans gonna be my future home...

Wanna brag something overhere... I'M AN AWARD WINNING STUDENT!!! I WON THE 2004 GRADUATION IMI SWISS AWARD. Hahaha... The prize is RM 400++ worth of Swiss Watch!! How about that!! To those ex-friend who were treated me badly during my study... yeah YOU, you know who u r... Who backstab me during the cake decoration project, the kitchen design project (that I'm the only one who deserve the credit, since I'm the only one who done that, u guys are such ASSHOLE!!!), the so-called friends in Penang, who ignoring me...

Who I Want to Meet:
Any homo sapiens

My elmiza.org is down...

My elmiza.org is temporary down!! Any email ending with elmiza.org will not get send... Please use my other emails. I'm not sure when the domain going up again, I'm unable to contact my host yet. And their site also down... Be patience...

UPDATE 14 Oct!!! elmiza.org is up and runing again!! But not sure how long it's going to last!

Annoying tech support!!!

For past few days, my internet connection was being suspended because of late payment. I totally forgoten bout it... Since I didn't get the bill for 2 months now. By the way, I'd paid the bill on Saturday morning and only get my internet back on Tuesday morning after making lot's of call to the tech support!! If I hadn't made any call, I'm still would be disconnected from the world outside.

Damn!! My domain is missing... I can't get my elmiza.org emails... I can't even access my host too!!!

Anyway, I got this email from a so-called friend. He's been letting people know about his trip to Vietnam and Cambodia. It's good for him...

I guess that I'm not lucky in friendship...

I have aching at upper back after doing halasana... I haven't done yoga for months... I've been doing yoga for sometimes this week. But yesterday session was mainly focus on the spine. So today I have to suffer... At least the pain remind me to sit and stand straight.

Hungry in middle of the night...

Background music : Playlist that contains Joss Stone, Jill Scott, Minnie Driver, Ray Charles and Queen Latifah.
Feeling : Hungry and sleepy... a bit bored.
Time :Start 1.26am Finish : 1.55am

The day passed without any hitch... Good... Went to gym, I met with BJ. It's been weeks... Catching up news with her. She gonna change her job this December.

I've made plan with Parry this Saturday, hope I didn't forget about it. Gonna take my graduation photos and have lunch with her. Maybe going to call Chings, if she wanna join us. My eldest brother called me, asking about the fees to AIPT. Now, I'm not sure how I'm gonna pay it, since he didn't feel secure to made the payment thru email. I have to think something else... Oh ya!! Today I meet with new friend in gym... His name is Allan. Got to know from Parry.

Believe it or not!!! I got an email this morning asking about my Kitchen Design lecturer, Mr. William Kua. And how on earth he knows my email!! I'm not sure if he's from US, but he told me that he knows Mr William in New Orleans. He needs Mr Kua email address. I can't simply give it, because I'm not sure if this guy really his long lost friend or someone that used to work with or with some other motives... I'm not sure... Waiting for his reply... Someone has been reading my blog... I thought that only few close friends read it.

I feel like doing charity after seing Sarah McLachlan's new video "World On Fire". Yeah!! I feel like doing so, many times before, but I'm still unable to survive on my own yet. But deffinately going to do some charities soon after I managed to survive on my own in future. But for the moment, I just do my part as a good citizen by giving some donations to Kidney foundation (last Tuesday) and to the blind society (last Sunday and last night). It's just a small token to help people in need. Now I've been thinking about one Non-Profit Org in Malaysia that I can contribute after I got back from US.

Yup, I'm hungry now... But it's too late to go out for supper, anyway I'm trying to consume less calories... other meaning.. I'm on diet... Kekekeke

Gym and cramp leg...

Just got back from gym. I'm really wasted... I'm not as fit as before... I have no stamina to do 2 hours cadio at all. Even an hour feels like I did 4 hours cardio. I haven't been workout regularly for 2 months. I have to get all the stamina again before leaving to US. I want to be as fit as before and loose the fat that I'm been collecting since 2 months ago... I feel like having my pot belly being liposuction now... Kehkeh... I had a crap on my thigh during pilates class, it's been almost 6 months the last time I did pilates... It hurts so much... Tomorrow going to do weigh before starting my part time job!! My gym buddies planning to send me to airport when I'm leaving to US... I don't want them to be there went I'm boarding.. It will be hard for me!!

I ever wonder that why lately I feel so hungry even I just had eaten... Am I going to be like waste dissposal, never get full?

I received an email from John and Ed... They went to Perhentian... I've always wanted to go there.. but till today don't have the chance yet... Hahaha missed the twins!!

Bleeding...

I slept late last night... Watching the final season of FRIENDS, I mean the whole season 10 series, about 18 of it... I love that show! It's sad that it's gonna be the last season, from now I don't have the eager to watch every year for new season. It's been 10 years I'm following the sitcom. I'm totally hooked with all the characters and the situations. Wow!! I'm gonna missed the show... But never mind, I still have the collections.

When I woke-up this morning, my nose bleeding... I don't know why. This is very rare occurrence, I can't remember when was the last time I had bleeding nose. Maybe 3-4 years ago. It's weird. May be too much FRIENDS or stress... But can stress gives any bleeding nose?

Oh ya! I managed to get the loan, so now, I'm okay to go to US. Only waiting for the processing time and the visa. Have to wait till Nov for any news. By Dec, I think I can do my visa. So I'm in high hope again!!! Although a bit nervous about it...

By the way, I didn't include any photos in my blog site nowadays coz recently I formatted my computer and now I can't install back my Dreamweaver to do editing for this site. That's why there's no photos that somehow related with the topic that I talked about...

Nothing...

Last night I had dinner with Theo and Suleen at this Tanjung Puteri Stall at Sri Hartamas. Having nasi lemak for dinner was a great treat for me since it's been months since I had a good nasi lemak for dinner. I was a bit down, because I've been thinking about the situation that I'm having. Prior of waiting my parents feedback about the loan, I have to plan for something. I hate waiting... I'm anxious what they going to say, and the result from the AIPT and the US embassy. It just remind me about calling my mom for this matters. They know that I'm disappointed. I am.

At these moment, I feel like changing the whole plan. Instead going to US, maybe I'm going to UK. Theo told me that they need people in the hotel that he's working. And I'd told him that I'll give a though about it... Hmmm... Seems that I've lost my decision making abilities. Or I had ruined it...

Everytime when I look for the time, I see this watch that I'm wearing... The watch that said about my perseverance during in college. It just remind me to stay focus...

It's not over...

I send an email to Song, telling him that I have a financial problem to go to US. He wrote back to me saying that I can't let this opportunities go. I have come almost to the last stage, the hotel has agree to take me and pay half of the fees... I can't turn back and let go. I don't want to feel regret after letting this go. I have my own future to think about... Forget about the financial, work out something... I decided to be a gigolo!!!

Nah... Just kidding. Nope, I decided to get a loan from my parents. They said they will not gives the money, but if I want, they can give a loan. It's better than nothing. So, I asked Song again, how much I get working in US... Then I start to figure it out, to pay the loan and save a little bit for myself, so when I'm coming back, at least I have a little money to spend on something. Yes!! I can pay the loan. I have to pay only US$200 a month for 18 months to payback the loan. Tomorrow gonna let my parrents know that I willing to take the loan.

I got a job in One Utama, starting this Thursday... It's a temp job before leaving to US. I need to start saving... So no more clubbing and movies. No more entertaiment until the last week I'm here...

It's final...

My parents told me that they will not give the money... WHAT??!! I'm in a big trouble... I'm jobless and yet I couldn't get the money to go to US. Shit!!! I'm devastated. Just recently that I was taking the charge of my path, and today I was crushed. I just been awaken with this news. All my dreams gone... Ok, now, I have to workout my next plan. My last resort would be working in KDU. No matter what people going to say, I have to give myselft a chance to work in KDU. Wait till this Monday, if I still can't persuade my parents, I'll be working in KDU by next semester.

I did a tarrot reading... I don't believe that cards can tell future but what the heck.. Just for fun... So here's the reading.... CLICK HERE!!

It's over... But not yet...

I got an email saying that Marriot will not pay the full fees to AIPT for the visa host. I have to pay myself. I need to get US$1100 for the balance. I'm going to ask my parents about it. Even I wasn't sure their reaction, maybe I wouldn't get it, but I need to get it...